I was frustrated, hurt, offended, embarrassed, justified in my own eyes. Today as I was getting dressed I thought about all of that. I took a look in the mirror and I felt proud of myself for getting dressed when I wanted to stay in sweat pants and prove that opinion wrong while telling myself I don't care what people think. But I am grateful that I have lived enough days to obtain the wisdom to know that all of that was WRONG . I was wrong for responding out of vengeance, She was wrong for sharing a private conversation between her and her spouse instead of practicing discernment, I was wrong for even letting the thought take up space in my mind, the only person who may have been right (because of the season of life I was in) was the person who made the original comment.
I had moved to a new city and state and I had quit the hobby/trade that I was so passionate about to be a stay at home (with no friends or car) mom. I was in a place where all I wanted was to learn more and more about Jesus and God and Myself while my husband worked out of town. I wasn't concerned with appearances because I felt that those around me were close enough to not be judging or thinking about my appearance in a way to make a statement like that. I was wrong.
After I gained my footing from that place where god took me I gained the wisdom to know that one of my husbands loves is me, especially me who is trying to impress him with my appearance, talents, skills, efforts (you get the picture). He loves when he thinks or feels that I tried to give him my best as a life partner that day. He still loves me when I don't get to looking groomed that day and he may even make me dinner (without mentioning a word about my appearance besides how beautiful I am) but it doesn't mean he doesn't also LOVE when he comes home or sees me for the first time after a long work day and I look like I was ready to be seen by my favorite person(presentable).
This is not a desire of every man but MOST men do appreciate a woman who takes time to enhance her natural beauty. This has been taking place since the bible times, I don't know why women get to play with make up and do beauty treatments, but luckily for me I LOVE doing it. So today, when the advisory began to try and sabotage my day by leaving me in my rags all day, unmotivated and bitter about the opinions of men I checked that thought. Proceed with doing what I know will make my husband and myself feel loved and I got dressed. I took 10 minutes and look like I am ready to see my favorite person and now I feel like I mean business and business is getting handled. I thanked god for the growth to get out of sweats (and not out of spite) out of knowing what is right for my spirit. We are not called to be look and be lazy. (I am not talking about a sabbath or rest day, I am talking on a day when there is production to be made and commitments to be met).
I asked god for forgiveness for myself for the response I had towards that person who delivered that message of being a "rag", towards the person who delivered the comments too me, toward the originator of that comment. I thanked him for not letting their be a victory for laziness and spiritually and physically taking me out of my rags this morning!! Here I go to start my day!